The Clear End to a Season

I can't believe this year is almost over. Oh it was a year. A year of changes. A year to grow. A year to let go. A year to be introspective. I can definitely say at the end of this year that I don't have it figured out. But what's "it"? It could be life. It could be relationships. It could be school, or jobs, or the future. But what if "it" is myself? What if I don't have myself figured out?

I'm 22 and I don't have it all figured out. I'm resolved to believe that not knowing is ok. Isn't that the basis of faith, though? Not knowing, not being able to figure everything out. Yes. It is.

I can rest securely in that. I don't know. I don't have things figured out. And I'm ok with that. And I'm ok with not knowing what 2009 looks like. For now, it looks clear. Like an empty canvas. Something to be wrestled with, mulled over, enjoyed, cherished, and worked on... over time.

So, goodbye to 2008. Hello to 2009. It'll be an interesting ride -- that's for sure.