2 in one day?! ... LENT.

Our church has never really observed Lent as a whole. So I don't really know a ton about it, but I do know that Jesus gave up his everything and over these 40ish days, I can give up something. But Jesus also took on everyone of our sins. So I will take on something. My challenge is a bit obscure.

So here's what I decided. I decided, that in spite of the past year of my life where I became a worrier, that I would give up WORRYING. Haha, you might say. But here's a scripture I heard read 3 times the week of Ash Wednesday.

"They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty, and I will meditate on your wonderful works." - Psalm 145:5

Dictionary.com defines worry as: to torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts; fret.

Torment oneself? Yep. I've done a lot of that. I've spent way too many hours not sleeping because of worry. I've spent way too many hours having arguments in my head that either will never happen or happened way better than I imagined. Maybe we worry because we want to come up with the worst possible scenario, so when whatever we're worrying about does happen, it's not as bad as we imagined it. I would call that torment.

I've never been a worrier in my life before. I've prided myself on having really big faith. I've learned how to pray, worship, give things over, and walk away. So where did this come from? That's what I'm trying to figure out. I'm trying to figure where, in me, did worry begin. Where did a seed get planted? I don't know. But what I do know is that putting anything in the light makes it not look as scary as we once thought it was.

So, instead of worrying, I will do my best to spend my time thinking of the WONDERFUL works of the Lord. I will spend my time thinking of the WONDERFUL things He had done for me, in me, and through me. Those things are WORTH dwelling on.

"They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty, and I will meditate on your wonderful works." - Psalm 145:5


Side note: I wrote "worrier" and realized how close that word is to "warrior". I want to be a WARRIOR, not a WORRIER. Dwelling on His wonderful works will produce that in me :)