It's been a long time!

Wow! It has been a long time since I wrote in here. Some of it has been sheer busyness, and the rest has been laziness. I'm not even sure what I want to say. I do, indeed, feel like my thoughts have become jumbled with my impending desire to just walk away from the situations I am facing. But over the last month or so, I feel like I've learned a lot. Here are a few things I need to remember/get a better hold of:

-When I'm given 12th row tickets to the UNC/State game at UNC, I need to watch the game, not the big screen at the top of the rafters. You really can see better when you're watching in real life, from really close.

-Stop thinking about what I did or didn't say. It's over. It's done. Don't dwell on it.

-I can't change people. God can. I can't bring repentance. I can't make anyone feel any differently (though I've tried), but God can.

-I really can say too much.

-Relationships change and mold. Sometimes it's for the better and sometimes it's for the worse, but bottom line is: GOD IS ALL GOOD.

-My thoughts have become a force of their own, but I still have dominion over them. Why can't I remember that?

-There's a lot I wish was different right this very minutes, but it's not, so why waste my time thinking about it or dwelling on it? (easier said than done)

-Walking in forgiveness is the hardest thing I've ever done.

Lastly, if I could only grasp this verse, I think things would be incredibly different:
"For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless. O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you." - Psalm 84:11-12